Allah, I fear these are my last days with my son. Please save him

“Ammi, do people always die if they have cancer? The doctors say I will be okay soon but it hurts to even breathe. Am I dying Ammi?” asked my 14-year-old son.

Allah, what mother has the courage to tell her son that yes, he might die and that there is nothing I can do to help him.

When Samiullah got sick the first time, I went into a frenzy. I have three children and never have I seen anyone become as sick as Samiullah did.

In July, he got a high fever for five days. During this time, his gums were bleeding heavily. In just a couple of days, his health deteriorated even further. Not knowing what to do, we took him to the local hospital.

He was given medication. In spite of this, a few days passed and his condition had only gotten worse. Even his urine had blood in it. We were scared but had no time to panic. We rushed Samiullah to a bigger hospital.

It is not normal for a child to suddenly become so ill. I knew these were only the symptoms of something life-threatening. My motherly instinct told me right away that my boy’s life is in grave danger.

However, I will never forget the moment I heard the doctor tell us what is happening with our son. His words still ring in my ears when he said that my son is suffering from acute lymphoblastic leukaemia.

“My son..my son has cancer?” I remember asking. I couldn’t believe Allah let that happen to my child. Till that day, I believed I’m a strong woman but the second I heard my son had cancer, something in me instantly died.

I know I should act brave for my son and help him fight his disease. But I’m failing. Every time I see him covered in the tubes and bandages, my heart hurts.

Since Samiullah’s condition was already critical when he was admitted, his treatment immediately began. After running some tests, his first cycle of chemotherapy was done. I never imagined that my son would be screaming and crying in pain, and I’d just helplessly watch.

During this time I saw my son change completely. Cancer made his body extremely weak, his face swelled, and all his hair had fallen. He cried and cried when all his hair was gone. Yet again, I failed to comfort my poor child.

As if he wasn’t already in enough pain, more trouble made my son’s life miserable. During his treatment, Samiullah got a severe fungal infection on his hand and had to undergo a surgery. It is still extremely painful for him, even though he is given sedatives.

At this stage, only continuous chemotherapy and a long hospital stay can save my son. If his chemotherapy stops, Samiullah will lose his life at once.

However, It is a shame that I am not even relieved to know that he can be completely cured. It is because his chemotherapy will cost us a whopping Rs 10 lakh ($ 13622.29).

How will we, a family that barely has any money, afford Samiullah’s treatment? My husband is a taxi driver with a very low income yet he works very hard to give our three sons a good life. But now, even he is helpless. He spent all our life savings, sold our precious belongings and borrowed huge sums of money from friends and relatives.

We were able to pay for his previous treatments through these resources but now we aren’t even close to the amount required.

If Samiullah leaves us, Allah knows I will lose my will to live too. He is just a child. He does not deserve to be in so much pain. I beg you to please save my son. Every single donation will give him a second chance at life. I will be forever indebted towards your generosity.

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